wtf

what the fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

this life sucks balls. sucking your mom's


ZZZZZZZZzzzZZZZZZ

kk wasted 2 hours emoing on the comp
12.35 mr. pussy boy needs to sleep so he can secks tomorrow

NGIHTS BITCHES

impend

wtf school totally sucks.
kkkkkk can't wait for weekend, this totally sucks.

sigh sigh sgih sigh,
back to more arby and the chief. i'm going to finish watching all episodes soon, and it's going to be boring.

ok homework waiting. zzzzzzzz

moderngaywarfuck

ok this week is fucking lame.
anyway arby and the chief was kind of awesome stuff, really got my things off my chest with all that nonsensical bullshit and humorous excessive swearing.

ok anyway today got me fucking angry, cause the rain fucking sucked my balls, which caused us not to have a fucking decent game of soccer
and something else on my fucking head that kept bugging me that got me fucking angry with everything

this fucking sucks, i hate it when it feels like some fucked up world is going against you. like you're some pussy who can't do nuts fuck about anything.
I FEEL LIKE A FUCKING DOUCHE FAG.
fuck this, i'm not a fucking pussy, i'm going to make sure people fear me, fucking think twice before they touch me.

i'm not a fucking loser, i won't tolerate this fucking bullshit anymore.
i'm fucking going to fucking be someone you don't mess with.

finally, COCK OF DOODY MODERNGAYWARFUCK YEAH
ARBY N CHIEF ROCKS

April

Hey, sorry for this late post! Haha this blog was almost dead.

Things are really tiring right now. Or maybe I'm just not working hard enough. I'm just really stressed over work and floorball.
I'm complaining a lot nowadays about these stuff.
But that won't get me anywhere, won't get me anything.

It seems like there's no other way out of this, I have to finish two more years of JC.
At first school seemed manageable, but now it seems like as though I want to break the nearest window half the time I'm awake. And still my nightmares still bug me when I sleep.

Things are going to get worse.
What can I say? I caused my own pain, and I have to clean up my own shit.
Complaining gives trouble, and giving up 1 second, is giving up a string of my life, which makes it 10 times harder to get back on pace.

I hate this, I really hate this, but it's too early to say I hate this.
I'm supposed to be good, I'm supposed to perform better than what I am now.

Life gets worse every year.
Well I should stop using the computer so often now, have to do my work.
Nights.

2009

2009 feels like a life changing year.
Partly because I'm 18 and I realise that i'm actually that old already.
It's just kind of feeling, where you don't want to grow any older, nor become any younger. And yet, there seems like a whole lot more to do now, but nothing seems to really matter.

Ok anyway, sorry for the extremely belated update.
I got cut on the finger during floorball training by a high stick. Haha, oh well, it's recovering fast and soon I can use my index finger properly again (:. Anyway I really want to play for A divison this year and hopefully we can bring home Gold this year!

On a side note, Ben Byrne is 18 (:. Congrates yo!

So much to work on. So little time.

Sometimes I wish for something different, but I know nothing's going to come.





Love is such a pain. What's worse is when you can't determine love, or when your heart's just selfish.

Fear

School's reopening on Monday and I'm dreading to go back to that school. I really dislike the feeling of going back to Yishun JC. The fact that I've 2 more years in there, is really a sad thing.

Sigh...
What luck man, seriously, what luck.
On a brighter note, I graduate from pre-U education the same time as Koinoinia guys.

Nowadays my pride has been getting to me and other people. In other words, I've been more of an asshole lately.

Oh well, GOD please just bring me to a place where I really belong!

It's quite hopeless to scream like this because I know that going down this path, is the only way.


What's love? Do I really like you?
I'm afraid that we might be doing something wrong, at least I might be doing something wrong. But then you reassure over and over again, and it keeps me sane.

God's a savior.

Nights

I don't know if I'm having problems, or is the music just making me negative.

I'm such a fool.. to do some things. Sometimes I just wish everyone would tell me the truth.

Like,

Are you seeing another guy? If you are, I'm totally fine with it, I just want to know.


Sigh, I just really want to go out with friends again. Like a guy's outing, like with Sam and the rest of the guys.
It just seems like I'm asking for too much, like I'm asking for the impossible.
I just can't be myself anywhere anymore, not unless when I'm with you.

I have no idea what the hell I'm saying anymore.
Dismiss my thoughts, hope for a better day.

I know God will send his blessings.